Sunday, August 30, 2009 ' 12:22:00 AM Y
--Love & All
i got scolded today rite in the morning...
not long after practice started....
the co conductor said that i am lousy...
i should transfer...
dun pull the whole dizi back...
tears just rolled out of my eyes...
max ask me go out and take a rest...
both max and eugene seniors accompanied me... they told me to ignore him....i couldn't...max went in first...left eugene... he didn't say anything... only said that i should ignore him and dun care abt him...though it wasn't much, but i really thank them... really... thank you...i went to wash up...
told myself not to cry... i will one day prove to him that he was wrong... but i noe what he said was the true....my teacher oso said so the day before...i noe it myself...but it hurts...i dun wan to admit it...is like a thousand knife cutting my heart...i am still bleeding...it really hurts... i couldn't take it...tears just rolled down... it wouldn't stop...it's painful... the moment we had break. i ran...
i went to hide...
where??? i oso dun noe... just cried... but i didn't break down....
when i thought it was over, i walked towards the crowd...
it wasn't... as joey and nata came towards me... i broke down and cried...
they hugged me... as i cried my heart and stress out...
joey and nata accompanied me... they cheered me up... thank you... joey, nata... really... that support that you guys lend me helped... i went back in... my friends tried to cheer me up... i smiled... but tears still came up...
i saw the conductor... a sudden fear ran down me... all of a sudden...i realised that i developed a fear towards him... a fear that made me bleed...it hurts... i didn't dare to break a word towards my family...
somehow... all my friends who asked me what happened, i couldn't answer...
the whole day i felt weak...nothing can be done... my hands felt like they won't mine... i lost all my energy and strength...i felt helpless... pain... and despair...jia hwee called me to cheer me up...
i asked her to teach me er hu...
i wanted another way out....
she said that the xuan yue ppl, such as jonah all said that they supported me... no one was laughing at me...
when i heard that... i cried... but i had to control...
i didn't want my family to worry...
thank you... everyone...
i didn't want to quit now... is not fair... i am not willing to give up now... i DUN WAN...i dun wan my dad and mum to be disappointed with me...everything hurts now... i am in pain and fear...my heart really hurts... i guess it would take some time for me to heal... the wound is made by thousands of knifes...i dun think i felt so despair, so helpless, so weak, so... i dun noe... before...i didn't noe wat to say now...
all i noe is nothing can be done today....
i felt fear... pain....my heart seems to be carrying sth... something that i wanted to hide at all cost... something that weights a lot... i wanted to take it off... but i think that will take some time... it might never heal at all...Somehow... My opinion of my seniors changed...
They are there for me...
even those in xuan yue...
their support was expressed to me through jia hwee...
Somehow... I felt like thanking eugene senior...
Dun noe why...
Maybe because he was there with me outside when i was crying rite after the conductor scolded me that made me felt that at least there was someone with me...(the others couldn't come up... they still had to practice... and max needs to be there to hold the situation...)
or maybe it was because joey said that he scolded the conductor when i cried that made me feel that at least someone hated him with me for that moment...
or maybe because... i dun noe...
i dun noe how to say it...
But it's a thanks to him and max too......
and all my friends like nata, joey, jia hwee...
and of course my seniors...
Thoughts Flash...Y
-- 18 isn't that exciting after all...
-- I want to own a dog!!!~ T.T
-- I want my post-exam activities to happen soon!!!
-- Top hopes: I CAN GRADUATE FROM JC AND ENTER INTO THE UNI COURSE OF MY DREAM!!! (DONE!!!<3)
Wants to say...Y
- I would be happy to receive anything, especially :
1. Things such as Posters that are related to Super Junior, SHINee, Mblaq, B2ST, 2NE1,SpeXial (must come in one set like this) =P
2. Soft toys that can be hugged
3. Fashion Accessory
The Devil Who Failed...Y
[x]Name: I Wld Like 2 Keep It A Secret...Shhh...(Anyway, Everyone Knows It...Hahahaha)
[x]Class: 1A, 2A, 3C, 4C, 5 Faith, 6 Faith, 1R6, 2R6, 3R1, 4R1, 12S16
[x]School: MBS (Previous), NAS (Graduated), TPJC (Current)
[x]Birthdae: 15 April
[x]Horoscope: Aries
[x]New in-s: K POPs, SpeXial, Dog Whisperer, Bondi Rescue
A Day To Remember...Y
-- 5 October 2010---
Mr Joseph Lim, form teacher of 1R6'08 & 2R6'09, left us...
-- 19 April 2011--
SYF 2011 was held at SCH, As a member of NASCO, I entered...
-- 21 April 2011--
NASCO clinches the GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!
Melody...Y
Special: Videos...Y
--Videos are all taken from youtube--
[*]SpeXial- Super Style
[*]2NE1- Hate You
[*]SNSD- Supernova
Blessings To Me...Y
Yo ppl... this chatbox is out of use... i have choose to keep it as a memory... so, remember to tag in the first one...
Special: SUPER JUNIOR..슈퍼주니어Y
[*]Representing colour: Sapphire Blue/ 宝蓝色
[*]Fan's name: E.L.F
[*]According to Age--Members--
=Leeteuk
= HeeChul
= Hankyung
= YeSung
= KangIn
= ShinDong
=Sungmin
= Eunhyuk
= SiWon
=DongHae
= RyeoWook
= KiBum
= Kyuhyun
[*]Me--Top few--
=Eunhyuk
= RyeoWook
= Kyuhyun
= SungMin
= HeeChul
Special: SHINee...샤이니 Y
[*]Representing colour: Pearlecent Aquamarine/ 珍珠湖水色
[*]Fan's name: SHINee World
[*]According to age-- Members--
= Onew
= JongHyun
= Key
= MinHo
=Taemin
Special: Mblaq... 엠블랙Y
[*]Full: Music Boys Live in Absolute Quality
[*]Representing colour: Pearl Chocolate/ 珠光巧克力
[*]Fan's name: A+ / 에이프러스
[*]According to age-- Members--
= SeungHo
= G.O
= Lee Joon
= Cheon Dong/ Thunder
= Mir
Special: B2ST/ Beast...비스트 Y
[*]Full: Boys 2 Seach for Top/ Boys of the EAst Standing Tall
[*]Representing colour: Night Blue Pearl/ 夜珍珠蓝
[*]Fan's name: B2uTy（Beauty）/ 뷰티 - B2st and b2uty does not consist in gazing at EAch other, bUt in looking Together in the same localitY=BEAUTY
[*]According to age-- Members--
=Yoon Doo Joon
=Jang Hyun Seung
=Yong Jun Hyung
=Yang Yo Seob
=Lee Ki Kwang
=Son Dong Woon
Special: 2NE1... Y
[*]Meaning: 2NE1借用21数字的英文发音。其中，NE是New Evolution（新进展）的英文缩写，象征着2NE1这支组合在21世纪为韩国音乐带来新的进化。永远像21岁那样富有挑战性、呈现新鲜音乐的组合。21这一数字也是黑杰克Blackjack（21点）扑克牌游戏中必胜的最大点。同时，21还是2ne1出道时候成员的平均年龄...
[*]Representing colour: Hot Pink/ 热粉红色
[*]Fan's name: Black Jack-Black Jack：Black Jack取自扑克牌游戏21点，众所周知2NE1的队服上有2张扑克牌，上面所显示的点数就是最大的21点，而且很多Fans也早就把这一对扑克牌当做是妞们的标志，因此取了这个Black Jack。并且2ne1代表21，BlackJack也代表21点，是游戏中的最大点数。互相作为最大点数，说明了在2ne1与歌迷心目中彼此的重要位置。
[*]According to age-- Members--
= Park Bom
= Sandara Park/ Dara ( Cheon Dong's sister)
= CL / Chae Lin (Leader)
= MinZy
Special: SHUGO CHARA...Y
[*]Favourite Couple-- Not in order...* Personal Opinion*
= Nagehiko & Rima
= Kukai & Utau
= Amu & Tadase
